there must be some sort of chaotic energy floating about me lately, because everyone I have been with lately has been affected in a drastic way.

it kinda like I am radioactive and I should be in a lead case till I have enough Half-lives to be inert.

or maybe like this

I am tired. tired tired tired. However, I have to keep on trucking, because I have to finish this essay, which currently isn't doing so well. I have to write about something in my life that plays a big part, but is a rule of some sort at the same time. I can't really think of any. I wanted to do one about Religion but right now my creative juices aren't giving me anything to write a minimum of 3 pages about. I hate when I have writer's block, although it isn't a severe case, I just don't like having an idea and not knowing how to express it. I makes me feel inadequate.

so what is going on in my head lately? well lets see, Csilla and I are now apart. We said we will give it another shot in the summer, and that should be ok, but I have this feel inside like it just won't work. but what do I know, it is just a feeling. I spent last night talking with Soulmate #1 Carrie, and it seems I am beginning to mess with her life too.

I figure I should quit while I am only in up to my knees. I think I should retreat to my room for a couple days, and let things calm down even though I don't want to. I have precious few days left with these people at BW and it makes me sad to know that it will be very difficult to see them over the summer. It is like the ending of summer camp, when you finally made all of these sweet friends, and then you have to take the long ride back home. don't get me wrong, I love all of you guys back at home, but I still feel only half full without the college crew.

anyway, I suppose I should get back to this paper on the Thoreau quote. talk to you later blog