the road less traveled
Show's happiness unraveled
And you got to take a little dirt
To keep what you love
-Exerpt from "If you could only see"

as I was rolling along in my car today, I had a "nice" day dream about the up coming summer. for some reason I have a feeling I am going to be emotionally screwed. even though I am single, I am already feeling like I am going to be cheating on something that isn't even mine. I have already been ridiculed a few times for that statement. But I guess other people just don't understand. Maybe that makes me silly, or lost in my own world, but it still feels real. I just don't want to be forgotten.

however, in spite of all I have said, I am not sad. or depressed, just hopeful, and ready for a good summer. Actually ready for A summer in general. it is about time I did some good ole fashioned aerobics and lifting. my goal WILL be met this summer and there is nothing that can stop me. My fervor for exercise lately has been kind of scary. I really haven't wanted to work out so bad in a long while, but I just haven't at college because I have precious time remaining.

watch out lakewood park, when I get back you will be trampled underneath my tired yet determined feet!