My Homework is so backed up, I am not going to school today. I am taking a "personal day" to get crap done, sorry for any inconvienience.

but as of right now my mind is not on my homework, it is on Amy, and her blog.

this is one of those topics that a person doesn't really know what to say or how to say it...but I am sorry. I just wish I could be there to offer any kind of comfort I could offer a person, be it emotional, physical, spiritual or whatever. Although this example doesn't actually pertain to anything, I want to be a piece of clothing to cover you up Amy, just to make you feel that not everyone (or hardly anyone) feels your thoughts are wrong, or stupid, or anything other than deserving of some attention and time to make them better.

I just thought I would point out a little something. Your parents pushing you have made you an extreamly intelligent person, and not just intelligent looking either. comparitivly, your vocabulary, comprehension of english language, test taking skills, study skills, speaking skills, grammar skills, spelling skills are ALL superior to mine. I often times find myself trying to speak "better english" when I am around you so I don't feel so much like cromagnon man grunting for some sweet, sweet lovin ( ).

but seriously, although you have your hard problems to get through in life, you have, perhaps even unintentionally, helped other people...or at least me. I often tell people of how much life would be different if "Cheesy Musical Night" never happened. Getting closer to you, and valerie, and karrie, and chelsea...has made me such a happy person, I often gaze into nothing thinking about the sheer luck and maybe even Divine blessing I have recieved. Not to discredit the feelings I have for anyone else (because they are great also), getting closer to you, YOU, has been a dream come true. I just took a 15 minute break on a frantic search for past notes that you have written me way back in those crazy freshman and sophmore days. I still keep them, and read them because I still feel that I have a connection with you, that I have with no one else. There are just somethings in my mind that stay, cristalized for my to reminisce on. for instance...when we are to get married, we are going to have a cat =). the note that you wrote me on that paper you described me in certain ways, ways that I still give one of those silly boy grins that just give you a warm feeling inside.

well now I am rambling too, but that doesn't matter, this is only part of my feelings that I wish to fortify you with. Going to the same college with you has eased the pain of wishing my friends goodbye after high school a little.

I just thought of something that made me smile. the image to said to me of me being the good friend you would come to after relationships didn't work, and just being there..like in "when Harry met Sally" (maybe not the sweet, sweet lovin part ( ) but we are only 18..except me). just thought I would point out that, I would take that role and give it everything I had if I were given the chance. although emotion has never really been very freeflowing between us...I still want to be there, if you would like me to be or not.

I think I will leave you with that, it is time to do my homework I took off school to do.

I hope things turn out for the good amy,

and call me when you get home Csilla =)