Ever feel like you have all the answers? the WHOLE puzzle is laying before you and you know where every piece goes? if you do, I'll give you my Cell, gimmie a call you stingy bastard.

last night I was tired to the point where I was staring in the mirror in the bathroom and had problems keeping my head up. I forgot what it felt like to be completely and utterly exhausted. you know, it's one of those feelings that you never want, especially after being utterly blown away by a stupid SHOW. Fuck that. a TELEVISION SHOW should not be able to affect someone so bad.

but see, it isn't the damn show...it's the emotions and memories of the person the show plays on. Everyone has sentimental memories, and wants/desires. Maybe even needs and that's the shit that strikes true.

Wake me up, I dream living. let me sleep, I'm living a dream.  either way, Save me.

I swear I'm going to dedicate myself to finding out why people fee like they do and when they do. Not phychology style, but intimately know someone well enough to find a fucking way to bolster their damn willpower and repair sooo much damage.

I'll never be able to do that will I? In the grand scheme of things,  does that even matter?

fuck questions. I'm gonna go take a shower, everything's better after a shower right??

RIGHT???

I can tell you from experience, that's showers don't do anything for ya, the only emotion I've been able to release from my system from a shower was pure, untainted Rage. and that was Last Semester + a very Cold shower in North hall.  My choice.

also, I just noticed; why is it when we are sad, or depressed, or something we consider a negative emotion, we HOARD THE HELL out of it? it's like, we have to tip the scale so much in the sad direction to even out the good parts of life? Give the scales a rest eh? enjoy the life you have in front of you

practice what I preach....eh?