Man, I really need a day to just relax. I am definatly too high strung about things right now. I was definatly right when I said things that normally bounce off are annoying me. It really sucks.

However, I am really hopeful about the next couple weeks. Only 5 more days of actual schooling, then finals. After that I don't want to think about it, because at this point is makes me sad. This year has been a variable fairy tale as far as having fun goes. Waving goodbye to that is one of the hardest things I will ever have to do.

But that doesn't matter, and it seems that sometimes I don't either, but that is fine. Being needed isn't something that I strive for, but rather something that I hope for.

talking to my brother helps me see the (pardon the stupid ass expression) Nitty Gritty of human interaction. So much stuff that we talk about, and I don't want to believe is true, Always happens. SHIT DAMNIT. The only problem is, I don't like to wage "Psychological Warfare" on friends. What the hell does that accomplish when I feel like a big asshole in the end. Thoreau would kick me in the Scrote if I did something like that.

But what does that matter, Do the ends justify the means? or vice versa....couldn't tell you