as I sit here in our fine Math and Computer Science building I find that I cannot think of much but music right now. Sure I have my headphones on and listening to music when I probably should be sitting here in silence going insane like the rest of the people round me doing projects and things like that. but I get to go insane in a different sort of way. Being mindful of a whole bunch of things that really are irrelivant at this point. for instance, getting to know the new pittsburgher at BW (laura) really has a lot of traits that my ole buddy Carrie used to portray. Or how in Lakewood, I pretty much officially know nobody around anymore, it's kinda sad during the school year to see everyone peace out.

but I guess it isn't like I actually did much with anyone anyway. I have a spiritual disciplines class that I am focusing on the discipline of submission, and so far it's been killer. I bring this up because I am so (unhealthily) against doing things I know will be fun but that will "inconvience" my "relax time". Ain't that some shit?. Not sure what to say about that one. I am really trying to get better at it....if I ever frustrate you because of that...I"m so sorry, I really am and I know there isn't much I can do to make up for that kinda thing but I'll try to better myself.

I guess that's all we can really say about something? No one can ever repair the memories that someone recieves from the actions you do or do not do, but you can help to make new and better ones.

sometimes I pretend to know more about myself then other people, and sometimes I think I may have a better grasp on life than other people, you know...with all that philosophy and psychology I'm sure you people have heard me spout from time to time about being an Authentic person, and maybe even something about Self-Awareness. but you know, in all of my "wisdom", I am wise enough to know that I don't REALLY know all that much. don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to say I'm stupid or anything, I'm sure plenty of my friends could tell you that =D

Anyway, I guess I'm just looking to say, thanks for putting up with my shit. soooo on that note, take it away asinine traffic signs