Good Lerd m'lerd....

What a night...what a night...3 words describe tonight..

WHAT THE FUCK

it was really nice to talk about things, but wow, 2 people in one night, good lord.

I wuv you

sometimesiwishicouldwritealotofstuffandputitonmyblogsopeoplecouldreaditandbehappy
buticantbecauseiamanerd

Diamonds are forever, so are memories..*sigh*

I am listening to Dan Ott's Radio show, it is awesome in an "Uhhhh sweet" sorta way, I love it =)

Other than that I did get done with my Puppet and my Hamlet report...oh my god that took me ALL NIGHT.

Sorry Amy, I didn't get a chance to rope Dave Forni in tonight, I had to do the entire Hamlet report tonight..it was kinda harsh, my first AP report where I had to use quotes and such, it was kinda fun though because it was the first time I got to try to see if I am cut out of AP work.

but I am really sorry, David Forni offense count 2 times as bad towards me, so I am sorry...I will get him eventually though...*sniff*

I was talking to Karrie today and she made me kinda sad, Karrie feel better please? that or shut the FUCK up, bitch!!! (hehe)[Inside Joke]

I cannot wait till play rehearsal~! (the squiggly is the Tilda)

Congrats to all who made the play! it looks like it is going to be a wonderful cast.

So things are going well, I am kinda just sitting around doing some Math notes, but eh...I don't really want to do them...I should probably do my physics, I dislike that class, we are doing Equasions now..damn.

Umm nothing is wrong with the people side of life, just a couple little quirks that are sent my way, but I can handle it. Everything seems so small and petty now, it makes me pretty sad.

As for school, blah, it is fun, I love my friends, but alas it is school.

Love side, "Sexual Tension" is a word I heard a lot tonight, but no, I have no current love interests, or at least none that I would be willing to risk friendships over.

Eh, I don't think there is really anything else to talk about, I had a great night, but I am just feeling kinda bummed. It is kinda a feeling of being let down or something like that, I dunno whatever.

Night

The people that waaaalk-ed that waaaaaaalk-ed that waaaaAAAaaaaaaAAAAAAAAlk-eeeeeed

yeah say that, and you have the bass aria for the Messiah hehe

yep

Fuck

Well last night was Valerie's party, and WOW that was a lot of fun.

like val said there was an impressive number of guys who came to the party, it was a good turn out. and I got to "Keep it real"..oh yes (L to the head with David Forni), I got to play with Chelsea's hair (I LOVE playing with girl's hair, it rules. Well actually girls do in general, just because). We got to watch dude where's my car, and have a multiplitude of new "Inside" jokes to use on the people who watched it (the Z, and "Stupid Llamas!").

I ritually passed on the Positivity stick to Valerie, remember, you have the power now Val!!!

overall I had a wonderful night, I had the upmost pleasure of meeting Michelle and Jillian (they are really cool), also Aaron Kennedy and Davematt (who hates to be called Davematt)

and also as usual, It was great to see Jana, Kim, Nick, Csilla, Karrie, Heather, DAVE FORNI, and others again. I love em all.

well I am out for now, time for some kinda..oh I dunno, homework or something lame..blah-ick

Sleep......

Well today was a pretty good day, average for a school day.

Today Amy picked me up and we went out, the first time it was just us two, ever. I am proud to report that I enjoyed it, immensly.

and from that..the quote of the week happens to be:
"He's after you again!"

Thanks Amy, it was really good, or should I say thanks sis (hehe)

Other than that I am hoping maybe to hang out with Heather and company tonight, sounds good to me, things are ok here I have no problems really to report, things are going well in my life.

it is times like this I wish I hadn't blown things with Amy, she a helluva girl. and I am proud to call her my friend

(this blog is basically "ode to amy")

today was a good day, a lot of things were resolved.

and I am listening to Music Man songs...so good!

Maaaaaaaarian.......Madam Libraaaaaaarian........hehehe yeah good ole days.

Spider Man, Spider Man...does whatever a spider can..etc

I dunno random goodness

Thanks Amy, I owe you a ton.

updateing for the point of updating I guess

here is my Continuum poem I wrote in Creative Writing..I feel very deeply for this poem, because it is something I need to remember, and maybe a lot of you guys out there should too.

The Darkness of my soul surrounds me
Eminating Black beams of Hollowed Happiness
Squelching cries of joy and love.
Eternity Spent, waiting for the clouds to lessen,
never resting.
Galiantly facing the midnight mist about me,
Ethereal light breaks through my barrier
Repelling feelings of Despair and Dread
Directly before me now stands my savior
Relentless with her love and beauty, my Queen
Named Simply "Hope".

so you guys when things look bad, never lose hope, it will show you the way and set you free.

Right now (a second ago, and very soon in the future) I was/going to be sitting on my bed with an af-ghan(sp?) and enjoying the simple pleasures of childhood comfort, awaiting people to talk to..or deciding to sleep...either or, it all works

yes, pissy, dubbed by Amy tonight..thanks a ton missy.

I REALLY want to watch some disney movies right now, preferably, Aladdin..I don't own a lot of Disney movies, but I think I will have to go start buying them.

BUT DAMN

the amount of anxiousness to see Aladdin is Freakin Insane.

So I was 30 minutes late to voice class today because I thought it started at 9:30...and it was 9 this week..*sigh* oh well.

There are 3 very very pretty girls in my class, one of them takes classes from beck and goes to Magnificat, one is a cheerleader from Avon lake..and the other is just a girl from Lutheran West. there is a rumor of 1 more girl, but she wasn't there..and there is this other dude from eh..north ridgeville I think, he has been in my class for like 3 years now..it is cool, his name is Dan. that is my story for this morning.

Last night I chilled with Karried, Heather and

Dave Forni

, I dunno maybe a couple girls missed the last one


DAVE FORNI


so yeah, We had a good time, I tried to keep Dave Forni in a socialable mood as much as I could, it was fun. So I dunno what is going on today..but we shall see. as of right now I think I am going to call my brother and see what he is up to.

Goodbye! (aol voice)

Well as Rafiki the monkey once said "The King...has returned"

and that is how I feel, like a rejuvinated man springing forth off of his deathbed. filled with the joy of running and playing.

a.k.a. Dave is back (for the most part) no one is 100% back to normal, but I stronger, and I ready to goof around with the best of em!

and I R weasel...or something like that hehehehe

Werd Up to my peeps in Florida (Jeff), Later guys

-Blah-

"Stop being inadequate"

seriously, that is kinda weak.

Gosh, lately I have just felt so inadequate it just sucks. People aren't doing it on purpose, but it is getting to me really easily, I mean look at my situation, if you don't know talk to me sometime, preferably in person.

I just feel as if I am the guy who would be standing in the back of the room who occasionally answers someone question about the weather forecast.

"Depression is Anger Frozen over"- Mr. Jacoby today quoting something

I know what he is talking about, especially when it starts to thaw.

I dunno what I should be doing I am just kinda trying to get going with the flow of things, everything is so unstable still, I don't know what I should be focusing on and what I should be letting go of. it is all so complicated.

oh well

These lyrics were so powerful to me, I had to steal them off Karrie's page, an amazing find

In his Darkness all he sees is you.
Your visage is pressed firmly into his memory
And refuses to leave.

In his Darkness all he smells is you.
Your own herbal concoction that he never knew the name of
Taunts his unforgiving nose.

In his Darkness all he hears is you
Boasting of the perfection
That you never could provide him.

His friends don't know him anymore.
They wonder what happened
To make him hide in the shadows.

They ask why he cannot see what you have done to him,
You, with your careless neglect, are responsible for his fall.

In his Darkness all he knows is you.
The love that you betrayed
Still rests on his favorite pedestal.

In his Darkness all he finds is you
To relieve him from the pain
That you brought to him in the first place.

Life has a balance, you get an Incredible night filled with Fun, and cool people (for the most part) and then you see some shit that pisses you off.

but it is a ton easier on me now, when you see something that makes you sick, it sort of takes a lot of the shoulders.

Life is just so wierd right now I don't even know how to describe it, I dunno

Mood Swing, I am feeling ok, more realizations, they come slowly but I love them so much.

I have never felt so bad in my entire life, I have reached a new low. I have no joy left inside of me at this point, I have hit the very bottom, even with my amazing friends whom I would never give up.

WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO DAMNIT

TELL ME!!

some 150 or so rounds of Counter-Strike and 131 pages of frankenstien later..dave arrives at 12:04am ready for bed..yeah it has been a good day, tomorrow I meet a new friend..his name is Christopher Marlow..and he was born in the 1500's HURRAY!