Soo anyway, things have been find since yesterday.

the audition meeting was cool, I finally decided who I am going to tryout for, and all that jazz. so basically it was a good day.

Everyone just seemed to make me so happy today, it was insane. I really can't describe it.

Grrrrrrrrah fuck.....errrrr, pissed off...somethings just have to finally come out

There is no way that I could have been prepaired for Carly and I fighting. I feel like when this fight is over, I am going to go beat the FUCK OUT OF MY WEIGHTS IN THE BASEMENT!!!!! either that or go cry, depending on how masculine I feel

lou sirs haev feewoolings 2

Although I realize the Sims is a game that basically "can" be won in theory....it scares me REALLY badly to hear Amy say that she is that obsessed. Playing video games is great, lemme tell you...but it is just really scary to me to see someone else really into a video game.

I wasted 2 years of my life on a video game, and it wasn't even The Sims..shocking eh? well you all know the story, but when I was reading Amy's blog I got a sudden chill that I realize I never want to feel.

don't get sucked in.

Other than that...

I got to go to Josh Fleischer's Last home Wrestling meet, he completely stomped his 2 opponents, and that was great. although all of the boys were wearing singlets (and for those of you who don't know what those are...they are basically full-body speedos) and it was kinda gross.

and I got to see Csilla afterwards, hehe.

well gonna go, Later

and yes, there is The Sims for Macintoshs...one of Steve Jobs' few victories.

*sigh*

Moulin Rouge is a heartbreaker.

I have seen it before, but I watched it again.

2 words describe that movie lately..."Painful Memories"

I dunno, a lot has gone on lately, Csilla has just been the flower of perfection. My friends are so special, I wish there were more hours in a day so I could be with all of them.

but for now, I need sleep. My eyes hurt.

I am now officially a Baldwin Wallace accepted student.

kick butt.

just something to Val:

I think you are right, it is really really hard to hate. going home I thought of the good times I had a few years ago, even with Pete, and it just sucks that it has to come to this.

I really don't know how to feel about things anymore.

awww man, I cannot belive it is Tuesday already, my god...time has been flying by and I don't like it.

Hell week, not called that for nothin'. I hate being at school from 3:00 to 10:00 only because I don't get to visit Csilla and/or Eat some home food.

Well I will do a little bit of a recap. I wish I could do more, but I have a cut right where finger taps the spacebar with my right thumb.

Columbus:
Columbus is basically divided into 3 parts of the journey. the Ride there, the actual rehersal, and the Ride home.

The Ride there was basically us listening to random music and me driving for a long long long long long time.

the Rehersal....Yuck, Divas of music do not make me happy. Although they have the talent to back up their statements, a lot of the time it is no more than "Really Good Goofballs from Symphonic Mixed".

The Ride home was basically "Strip Padiddle" between Rick and Rachel. it stopped before it got serious. thank god.

other than that, it has been nothing but these letters:

T H E P L A Y

and I miss Csilla. night

I wish I had the guts to be rude to people sometimes

Columbus, HO!!!!!!!!!!!! (Thundercats parody).

I will be back by eh...(3:30 x 2h30m.....around 6:00 + 20 minutes dropoff time, 6:30)

I kinda feel the need to ramble, and since I got my journal I can start rambling in there too.

God I love Karrie. Bless Val for having that King and I Kid party, if I wouldn't have gotten to know Val, Karrie, Chelsea, and Amy better than I did. I think I would be dead right now.

Other than that, I have just been sitting here coughing up a storm, and getting ready for bed.

Csilla and I are either going to both die, or be magically cured, I dunno which, but I don't really care. All that matters is that she is there. I enjoy watching Jesus propaganda about how he heals people and how God knows everything and then applying that to ohhh...I dunno Arthur and such. it is fun.

As far as that other girl, the one who lied to me, I can't help but feel physically disgusted with her. She has made her choice. Pete Jaegerson it is. I think I just need a little bit of talking with Amy for awhile. that would be fantastic.

That is just a fucking kicker I cannot get over it. She bitched at me for not telling her I started Dating Csilla, within a week of us dating, and she held out from everyone for over 2 weeks. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGG I feel like doing some physical exertion.

well Val called, gotta go, bye

So I am still fighting off a sickness of some kind, it is very annoying.

erm other than that I don't really have much to write about that I want to post on the internet

a certain girl disgusted me lately, don't worry it is no one who would read this blog.

errrrrrr, I have had fun with Csilla though, although I should really stay away because I think I might start effecting her health...gah stupid sicknesses. oh well

that is all for today, buh bye

doing homework really really sucks, especially when you have 11 physics worksheets to make up..jeez-o-man.

but anyway there isn't really anything notable to comment about, other than the fact that no matter how closely I read a book, there is always something I miss..and odds are, it is on the test.

the only thing I have to say at the moment right now is this:

being robbed at bowling sucks ass.

My god, I woke up this morning and nearly fainted in the shower.

My Vision got blurry, and I had to throw up. what a terrible day, yuck.

Sorry Csilla, I don't think I will get to go see pearl harbor today

I need someone to get their Light Saber toys and learn a fight with me, it doesn't even have to be from a movie, I am just in the mood to be a Jedi, this will pass, and pass quick it shall, but it is a good feeling of adrenaline....I blame it on the Nyquil.

if anyone has a "hankering" to see Star Wars episode one again please tell me. I have been listening to the music and reading more about it, and it is one of those cravings. Plus when someday you people rent "Star Wars Episode 1: Jedi Power Battles", and you get to the last level using Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan with the bad ass Duel of the Fates music, and your adrenaline kicks in, phew, oh man.

I have also been reading up on Star Wars Episode 2, it looks really really good. You girls will REALLY like the Star of this one, he is a very handsome teenager boy playing Anakin. Man oh man, this is one of those Aladdin size cravings.

Well I guess it is the new year, 2002, mine and many of my friends final year in high school.

well a ton has happened in the last year. I have been heartbroken, destroyed, insulted, and confronted. but also I have been, estatic, enamored, bombarded with feelings for happiness for friends and family alike. it isn't as if this were uncommon. but hey it is good to reflect to absorb what you have learned.

as far as things are I don't really know what to say. many things have turned out so well, how could I possibly ask for anything better? but so many things have just not gone right, or at least in what my opinion is the "wrong direction".

but anyway I started the year off on a good token. Good party, good friends, GOOD DRINK (sparkling heaven, wait, no that is Csilla).

well anyway talking to Jeff now, will post more later, bye