Alright so now I am just sitting around before my MWF Economics class at 1:20 just sitting around studying and I have come to the conclusion I better blog before someone kicks me in the nuts.

So everything is college is fun. my roomate is really cool, funny, guy, and we have a nice little pad set up now. it is all good.

I do miss friends I haven't seen in awhile, it will be hard after this weekend to realize I might not see many people till thanksgiving. and that is a pretty long time when you think about it. I am already hard pressed to stop by LHS and see how ever has been over the summer, however I don't want to be one of those people who come back every weekend.

it is just hard to stay away from what you have enjoy so much in the past four years of my life.

everything that has happened I have enjoyed when I Really think about it. everything, even the bad stuff, because that attributed to the good stuff that happened, by making it that much better. one can really learn a lot from happiness, if you only take the time to actually see.

I just lost a bunch of stuff..that was annoying

wow my blog doesn't post very well anymore...jeez

hmm Amy just left..

and it doesn't look like she will be returning tonight. sad sad.

I think I am going to fall asleep looking at my friends names on my buddy list tonight.

even though they aren't here with me, i know they are out there. breathing, thinking, being themselves.

wonderful thought to have for a boy at 1:21 in the morning

Wow, being sad sure makes songs have a new meaning.

I recommend listening to Hoobastank: "Running Away"

I garuntee it will spark something. I sure has for me, *sigh*

here are the lyrics, you can go and read them if you want
Running Away Lyrics

man oh man..people leaving, that is too much to handle. I don't care about being macho or guying, I am going to miss you guys terribly. Something I have always wanted to do, was take everyone of my friends out somewhere, and just be with them and tell them how much they mean to me. What every joke and smile creates in me. Except I didn't do that, and now one by one, they will all be going off. I know that December comes sooner that we think, and I am looking forward to it.

but I just sit here and think of all the great times I have been a part of over the years. all of the friendly faces and good feelings.

I wish right now I could have just a couple more weeks to bask in all of thier wonderful glows. Every single person has something inside of them that makes them special. why must things like this go?

I don't know. I just wish I wasn't such an emotional coward.

Friendship is the greatest gift you can give. and I feel like a spoiled kid on his birthday all year round.

I love you all, you can quote me on that. I hope that you love me too.

Best of luck in college.

I am Vanilla Flavoured. I am one of the most popular flavours in the world. Subtle and smooth, I go reasonably with anyone, and rarely do anything to offend. I can be expected to be blending in in society. Yep I guess Vanilla is ok. I do enjoy Vanilla Ice Cream. so that is good Give into the darkside luke So many things so many things. it is really easy to dislike things. anyone ever notice that? right now I just feel so angry, grrrr..crazy people This is definatly one of those low points in life. that was always a big thing for me..when I Would notice that things are too nice and something is going to have to go wrong to balance life. although nothing is going wrong persay..just annoying oh well life's a bitch, wear a helmet Thursday, August 15, 2002 discover what candy you are @ stvlive.com one of only a couple surveys I always wondered about Monday, August 12, 2002 So right now I am just sitting in the place that I usually do. just downloading and listening to music, right now I am downloading some Jimmy Eat World, and other random bands. just to listen to thier other tracks, and acoustic versions to other ones it isn't so bad sitting in your room. all of you constantly knock me for it. but I always have the time to gather my thoughts, and analize things. I get to look at the different sides of thoughts, and figure things out. Not that anything is going awry that I need to do "figuring out" but it is just nice. and peaceful. Today I just feel like lounging in nature. I dunno it is very serene right now. like an angel is in the room watching me. I just looked at my computer and just didn't want to do anything with it. (the one that actually plays games) so I switched computers and am listening to music and typing on this blog here. and it is funny because Karrie just pointed out that when I said I would post more, the next entry was five days later. whoops I suck thats ok though, because no one is perfect and all that jazz. and not to mention I don't really have all that negative self-esteem. I just figure I am me, and I shouldn't get pissed about it, but just try to make people feel alright, and not to piss off the ones who don't like me, because that just makes things a lot harder. so then I have basically been playing some video games and such, and lounging around, I think today I might do some more jogging, I haven't done that in awhile..but then again I might not get to that until five days from now =) so what am I thinking about right now? I dunno I am just typing and listening to music. the music is making the mood for me, whatever song comes on next is how I Feel in the next two or so minutes. I like that feeling though. another feeling I like is when you think of random people and smile. I do that a lot, whether they know it or not. So chances are, if you think you are not one of them..you are. Not Probably are..but you are I just like people in general. take someone, and look at thier personality. as I am talking to Karrie I am just thinking of the good stuff, and the great times we have had. and just how great it has been to know her. before anyone was online I was thinking of Jana and how great she is. how much I loved having conversations with her about random stuff holy shit I have at least 6 IM boxes open now ...and my cat came in the room too much pressure! haha yeah, but anyway, it seems that when I got off my game and came online, I suddenly have stuff to do in the next couple days. Thanks people out there, and thanks to the angel in the room watching me. so I am gonna close this entry for a minute and do some web surfing then maybe come back and do another Sunday, August 11, 2002 Sorry guys, I wasn't in the mood to do stuff. I was very Vomituous tonight if that isn't a word, then it is now. Tuesday, August 06, 2002 alright haven't posted in awhile, I forgot about my blog whoops. So anyway guys I am heading down to Atwood Lake for a couple of days with my parents. my mom is on vacation and we don't want to waste the time. Scheduled Events Golfing at a nice little place and I finally get to drive a Jetski bymyself! (well at least hopefully) well guys I will post more when I come home, I totally forgot about the blog for the past several days Thursday, August 01, 2002 so thanks to Josh Fleischer's extra video card, my monitor works and I can setup my computer, at the moment it is formatting my C drive so I can start installing crap this makes me happy. I am in a good mood now when you conquer computers it is such a nice feeling. (but it only lasts for so long..pretty soon..they are going to get you...