blueprints are very fun to draw. not so much because they are actually fun, but it was a lot cooler than actually putting forth the effort of building the bridge. definatly a worthwhile distraction, good grade=good fun.

small post from a small mind, it fits.

Alright, well this weekend has been pretty good thusfar. Having fun playing some games up until today, and going out with people, like Chelsea, Csilla, Dave, and Amy. Can't say it wasn't fun..procrastinating my bridge.

however I am not able to do much without getting yelled at until I fix my other computer and finish my bridge...that kinda limits my social life for awhile. albiet this bridge isn't that difficult, Pratt Truss is a simple concept, and should prove to hold a good amount of weight, if my stupid calculations are right.

sometimes I long to be one of those kids who are advanced in the math/science department. for instance, in the movie atlantis...each of the characters is able to figure out certain things, the main character deciphers the language, the bomb guy blows up things in such a way to make a bridge..etc. I just wish I could be one of those Military dudes who makes the bridge when they reach a river and stuff. I think that would make me feel better about things. I just hope that someday I am able to grasp the entire concept of computers and become the go-to guy when people need help, and I know exactly how to fix it, or find a way to fix.

but for now, I believe it is time for me to get back to making my bridge...bye

nothing really profound to say today. other than the fact Jana called, and I didn't have a chance to call her back!..poo.

that and my wannabe muscles really hurt today..god damn. I have a very hard time gripping things, because the muscle feels like it is going to strain itself to DEATH..no not really that was just thrown in for some added effect. probably didn't work anyway.

Hurray for Anni Duna. she is one of those girls I would like to talk to. She among many people has a nice smile too..I like it. lets just say it is one of those simple pleasures in life..smiles in the hall, inside jokes..etc you know how it is.

well tata for now.

previous post was for Karried

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DEER!!!!!!!!!

Well, it has been awhile since I wrote, but I figure now that I have a little pacience with writing I might as well update.

lets see where to start.

this past weekend I got to do a lot of fun things. Starting with seeing Dan Ott again. Damnit I really miss him, he is a really fun kid. not to mention he is a really great singer, what I wouldn't give to have him in vive this year. anyway Friday I had a friend over and we played video games for awhile, then I went over the the lavelles. it was great. Legend of a Drunken master is a really good movie, and the fight scenes are insanely quick.

Anyway, I am kinda selfish...I tend to read other peoples blogs and never update my own. bad dave. I will work on that...really I will.

as far as Csilla, I wish I could make her feel better, but she really needs to work on that report, and me..on my homework. such is the fate of two people with tasks at hand. and watching the Trading Spaces marathon with her is great. all my problems go out the window.

as for Amy, I am sorry for her position with the whole love situation. it is tough, and high school love is a bit folly and ends up in trouble, I wish her the best. But as for me, I think I tend to look at her too much in magnified state. put too much weight on her or something, and I feel out of place and rediculous when I try to put forth emotion into her direction. but enough of this, I feel ashamed for writing this much.

anyway, I am not sure about marti gras. it sounds like a good concept..I really like people in neat-o costumes. but I kinda just want to kick back again this weekend. we shall see. that and I really want to see Csilla some night this weekend so I still have time for the bridge.

blast it all =)

There really isn't much better things to do than go see a play with barnstormers. I love that group of people.

Aida was/is AWESOME. it was a romantic story, although it seemed predictable (due to its Disney origins), however it was very well done and the music was awesome except for the singer who we named R-dawg, or Ruffafluvenuff (gibberish)..who basically tried too hard to be Elton John...and he was a cross between McJager and Milli from Milli-Vanilli.

So eh, my computer isn't working yet, I should be able to fix it soon.

and yeah the ever great topics of the past keep reoccuring. like for instance the whole "make out party" a couple years ago. that is one of my favorites, I think Jana might know what I am talking about, I talked with her about it once, but thats it, and I would understand if she didn't remember. That is still one of my hardest memories to live down. I am sorry Amy. not like any writing on this blog will make anything better, but it is all I can do for now......Sorry



with that, goodnight

Ok this day is annoying but not quite so bad...I fix the problems my uncle causes on my computers

Well it seems in an attempt to try and upgrade my other computer, I have seemingly fried a few extreamly key files in its hard drive.

in otherwords

Fuck.

so don't be surprised if I am really aggrevated for a couple days, best recipie is to stay away from me until I get this fucking thing fixed, because as much as I love computers, I HATE FIXING THE DAMN THINGS.

Tonight is essay writing night, feel free to laugh

My Homework is so backed up, I am not going to school today. I am taking a "personal day" to get crap done, sorry for any inconvienience.

but as of right now my mind is not on my homework, it is on Amy, and her blog.

this is one of those topics that a person doesn't really know what to say or how to say it...but I am sorry. I just wish I could be there to offer any kind of comfort I could offer a person, be it emotional, physical, spiritual or whatever. Although this example doesn't actually pertain to anything, I want to be a piece of clothing to cover you up Amy, just to make you feel that not everyone (or hardly anyone) feels your thoughts are wrong, or stupid, or anything other than deserving of some attention and time to make them better.

I just thought I would point out a little something. Your parents pushing you have made you an extreamly intelligent person, and not just intelligent looking either. comparitivly, your vocabulary, comprehension of english language, test taking skills, study skills, speaking skills, grammar skills, spelling skills are ALL superior to mine. I often times find myself trying to speak "better english" when I am around you so I don't feel so much like cromagnon man grunting for some sweet, sweet lovin ( ).

but seriously, although you have your hard problems to get through in life, you have, perhaps even unintentionally, helped other people...or at least me. I often tell people of how much life would be different if "Cheesy Musical Night" never happened. Getting closer to you, and valerie, and karrie, and chelsea...has made me such a happy person, I often gaze into nothing thinking about the sheer luck and maybe even Divine blessing I have recieved. Not to discredit the feelings I have for anyone else (because they are great also), getting closer to you, YOU, has been a dream come true. I just took a 15 minute break on a frantic search for past notes that you have written me way back in those crazy freshman and sophmore days. I still keep them, and read them because I still feel that I have a connection with you, that I have with no one else. There are just somethings in my mind that stay, cristalized for my to reminisce on. for instance...when we are to get married, we are going to have a cat =). the note that you wrote me on that paper you described me in certain ways, ways that I still give one of those silly boy grins that just give you a warm feeling inside.

well now I am rambling too, but that doesn't matter, this is only part of my feelings that I wish to fortify you with. Going to the same college with you has eased the pain of wishing my friends goodbye after high school a little.

I just thought of something that made me smile. the image to said to me of me being the good friend you would come to after relationships didn't work, and just being there..like in "when Harry met Sally" (maybe not the sweet, sweet lovin part ( ) but we are only 18..except me). just thought I would point out that, I would take that role and give it everything I had if I were given the chance. although emotion has never really been very freeflowing between us...I still want to be there, if you would like me to be or not.

I think I will leave you with that, it is time to do my homework I took off school to do.

I hope things turn out for the good amy,

and call me when you get home Csilla =)

Thanks today goes out to Amy and Niccole for helping me get over my Fashion crisis. I really enjoy the new kicks they make me feel like a model or something (not that I am "pretty" enough to be a model, just..it makes me want to pose).

well time for a little chit chat then back to reading.