Life karma at its best. Have a wonderful enchanting night and a figurative cold rain blasts you when you weren't expecting it.

sometimes I feel selfish, very selfish with certain things and people. It is pretty unfortunate really, because I shouldn't be so affected when bad things occur. but than again if I am looking for bad things to occur, what the hell's the point of being happy in the first place? pessamism is a big crock of bullshit.

Well I guess all I can say is that, in spite of whatever, I am going to sit here in my room (just for tonight hopefully) and play some stupid waste of my life video games, because I really don't feel like doing anything else.


p.s. I just finished the blog and Kev, you got offline bro! damn, I wanted to say hey too =)

It is a wry pleasure to find that nightly plans change faster than the TV station during prime time television. (or changing off Scola).

I did some reading up on Eros, the god of Love of the soul. I found out some interesting stories and quotes

"it is said that there is no sort of courage more respected by the gods than the one coming from Love"

the story that comes from this quote is most notibly, The tale of Achillies. His love for his best friend Patroclus was greater than all else, and he avenged his death by fearlessly seeking to slay Hector I, even though he knew his fate was to die soon after completing his objective.

the idea that Love is greater than all is a comforting thought.


The idea that people of old would value courage coming from Love so highly is a proud one. I am proud to call myself a human.

How about a little random thought: Why is that when you get water in your eye, your eye freaks out, but when you have tears, your eyes are cool with it?

now I know tears are all salty and whatnot, but what about salt water? when that gets in your eyes, it just stings. I remember florida water is great, but not in the eyes.

here's another round of fun imageplay: I can picture a person's psyche as being a scene in a fantasy-based story or situation. A single person is equiped with the mythical equivalent of their mental stability. a person with great will-power and rationality would be clad in shining silver platemail and an enchanted greatsword. while a person who has a great ability to deflect "bad" thoughts but a low tolerance for accepting these thoughts would be someone with a fierce weapon, say a Scythe, but only wearing cloth robes.

Where am I going with this? the equipped people are standing surrounded by ill feelings that constantly attempt to attack the aforementioned person in the middle. Life's problems constantly attack people, we all know this, so in the middle there is a person defending against the problems that are actually there, and the problems we percieve. life is hard enough without the added difficulty bonus of our fallibilities.

that's where the fantasy part comes in, each friend you make that cares about you, stands at your side, fighting off the shadowy problems at they advance. the more people you make connections with, the more people you have with you, the easier it is for the lot of you to tackle problems

and we can get into the math about it but, as you know, Math is the antithesis of happiness. so Fark that.

Food!!
I'm outtie

Slammin new beats! thanks to Fruity Loops program

I made up my mind, ain't waistin' no more time
I made up my mind, I'm fallin over you...

you wanna sing along with me? Falling Over You and the Lyrics

I think that song is just right for feelin good on "Gay Thursday"

I hope rockapella doesn't kick my ass.

the more I think about Jeff's album he is workin on, the more I like the title, "It's cold inside". vivid imagery.

and just think, it is cold outside too! this weather is getting really frigid really quickly. I was chillin (haha) outside last night and lemme vouche for the cold, it is frosty man. You can definatly tell when you step on the blades of grass to find them crunch under your feet, with a certain satisfaction.

so lately, everything have just been victim to thought process. I find that things aren't as intense as they are thought to be. Imagination is a bitch! I have to tell myself to stop thinkin so much, because the worst pain you feel is the pain you bring onto yourself by analysis(unless...you know..someone stabs you or something).

I did actually sleep again lately, thanks to the knockout punch from Nyquil. Helped me fufill a much needed 8 hours of rest. Except my stupid poster keeps fallin on me. I swear I am beating the crap out of my anna kournikova poster nightly. I know she wants my body and everything....but she can at least wait until I am awake (riiiight).

So the finals are creepin up on me here, and I still have computer stuff to do, which I am having trouble with...it is getting really scary, but I can only give it my best. I am not sure how much I'll complete, but we shall see, I am lucky enough to get some assistance tomorrow, Wish me luck eh?

me so hungry, I feel that perhaps it is time for me to venture forth and via a decision, bring back food.

I found an interesting quiz off my buddy's info, and lookie what I got. it made me smile


Aphrodite/Eros


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
brought to you by Quizilla

Poetry is often something we use to express feelings and emotions. So are muscial pieces, and sometimes if you are so artistically inclined, you can draw a picture.

I feel that sometimes these things are just a more accepted way to put forth a feeling in the eyes of others. To make them feel elite or put forth they have a gift with words. I dunno about the neccesity for such structured or labelled outlet for feelings. How ever, sometimes you just can't find any other way for things to come out.
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All things are made with a weakness
Inferno to the Ocean
Frost to the Flame
A Human to his pride

A phoenix will burn itself into ashes
to rise again with rekindled glory
We humans aren't blessed with such luxury.

Every strength is balanced by fault
and each fault is redeemed by the same.
But what becomes of strength turned dark?
When your infallible inner force fails
and you're pushed deeper within your walls?

With what force do you fight back with?
can others you rely on help fight your battle?
If they do, will you really win?
This battle must be won with your own army
the unstoppable might of your greatest ability as a human
Hope

When this battle rages, will you rage with it?
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giving something new a try I guess, it has been awhile since I attempted to give something a shot, i had more fun making the picture though =)

Well after 7 hours of the Anti-Christ Math, I am now feelin the effects after the whole test thing

Wait..wait..I just remembered! I am sure if you look back on my blog you will find many instances of this, but too bad, here's another.

Girls...man oh man. What's up ladies. I want to know the classes you girls take to be so sweet to the eyes. I love when I get to go from class to class and look at all the girls. There so many here at BW, or as I should now nickname it BW for...Babe-Watch. Watching people is a hobby of mine, I enjoy looking at all the smiles and styles. And the eyes, ohhh the eyes are dangerous. Throw me a sincere glance and a smile and I melt like a stick of buttah. I saw a girl today as I walked to Philosophy, who possessed a pair of powerfully stunning eyes. They were a perfect hue of blue-frost, and as I cought sight of them she gave me the the classic smile/blush. If I wasn't late for class I would have totally started a conversation. Then there is always the girl I see as I come back from Philosophy, she has what I like to call, "Carrie Eyes", Warm and Thoughtful.

When is it that we really take the time to appreciate the beauty we see around us? today is one of those days

The hardest and possibly the most important task that you as a person have to deal with, is a relationship. Things are given and things are taken, exchanged and borrowed. You not following? a body is borrowed, a thought is given and a kiss is exchanged. Fundamentals right? sure we all know this stuff, if you are old enough to read these words on my site then you are definatly old enough to understand basic "love stuff". I mean come on, in first grade I knew I loved the color blue. love stuff, no problem. But now, oh no, the color blue won't cut it, now we all have to move on to bigger and much more fragile things, i.e. People (of course there were other fragile things in between, like toys and shiny objects that mom and dad had to hide, but I decided to pass those up no reason whatsoever). How easy is it to get lost in emotion? to throw a big red and completely opaque blanket around your surroundings and sit comfortably in the middle (probably indian style) and survey all that is within 3 feet of you. Any of this sound familiar? well maybe not the 3 feet part, but if you go to your local video store, you may want to pick up "The Matrix".

Where am I going with this? I don't know really, Sometimes in my bliss I forget to recall. and to coin a phrase my roomie currently codenamed "The Kev" uses, it is definatly a "sobering reality". But where does reality begin...and imagination FUBAR(Fuck(ed) Up Beyond All Recognition) that reality? sometimes I am not sure what to really make of things, when I should snap out of it or when I should slap myself and open my eyes

by this point you're either saying "duh" or "....riiight". Either way, this is something to read at the very least

Another thing...Math is the Polar opposite of Love. Absolutely if you think about love, you can't do math, and if you are doing math, you will fail it miserably if you think about love. just a little observation. think about it, no one cares why 2 is an element of the power set of {1,2}. No one knows why they got together, or what made them think alike. it is cold and unfeeling.

kinda scary if you think about it, next horror movie I see stars me being chased by a math book screaming "TEST TIME!!!"