Somedays just have that heavy feeling to them ya know? it isn't so much that I had a particularly bad day, but I guess the mood of today just wasn't so hot. That doesn't mean, however, that the day didn't have it's fun points.

Like Stephie! thanks for the lunch darlin, it's really nice to talk to you, I really think we should do more of that, because it's comforting, you know what's up and I like that.

However though I didn't go to Physics today, because I got back late and I really didn't want to stomache that class today, I won't miss anymore...but man oh man...it's killer long because it's killer boring. but what do you want me to do ya know? I got some good stuff done in that time, things that I need to get finished.

what I need is some good sleep

I decided to fully listen to what the teacher was saying in philosophy I wrote a poem (that and, I drew a picture of a teenage mutant ninja turtle):

All Encompassing Chivalry
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In the Turbulent Times of Today
Where our fears extend into the Daft Darkness of Tomorrow
I stand, before you.
My armor, shining steel that deflects the blows of Failure and Uncertainty
My sword, brandished, at the ready to smite your doubts
My life, pledged to you in times of Turmoil or Tranquility
And with you I live to share your life and mine, intertwined.
For I am a Knight of Faith
And you are my Light.

Let me know what you think. like I said, this is the product of my unfocused listening to the Existential lecture.

So yesterday was a successful Acapella group practice! we definatly learned "Keep on Smilin" in our rehersal, although a little rough around the edges, it has progressed very well and we can start it, sing through it, and finish it. a good rehersal indeed.

I guess another tidbid of news is that I am so completely sore from working out, I kinda feel like the Tinman from the Wizard of Oz, or The Wiz, whichever. I haven't really seen The Wiz though, so....no comment

Moving on, I have now spent a bundle of money on so many more school books, it's great! finally got me a smaller, less omnipotent (hehe) dictionary to have beside me when I read these awesome philosophers. and please if any of you want something interesting to read, I actually have a real live text book that is, dare I say, FUN! to read.

alright gonna go, later skaters

don't you hate it when you have those dreams, that just kick your mind's ass for awhile? I woke up late today (I set my alarm clock wrong) and wandered off to class without bookbag, and zoned.

I did manage to pay attention in class, I did my very best acting job there. you know acting like I had a notebook to write on, when in fact I was writting nonsense on the desk

coming up soon in Physics, this time I'll bring my notebook, but instead of writing nonsense, it's Go time!

alright gotta jet, catch you on the flip side

been spending most of my time enjoying this site:

Book-a-Minute Classics!

Well I guess I wasn't allowed to be in my current web page design class. I spoke with my advisor and I had to drop the class, and in its place I picked up a Philosophy course (Existentialism) which should be fun, and if all goes according to plan this semster, I'll pretty much be finished with core stuff, and then it's all technical things from there.

As I spoke to my advisor she told me that upon completion of my major I will probably get a job as a web page manager or things like entry level application design (the cute things you see when you install games...and whatever) however I told her my goals and she greatly insisted I (after a small amount of experience in the work field) go for my MBA. Describing that a person with both a degree in computer science and in business is an attractive combonation for project design and management. It makes me dream of being in an executive position. I am setting my goals high here, there is going to be a way that I will make my dreams come true. In the words and philosophy of mr. Walt Disney, you follow these four words: "Think, Believe, Dream, Dare".

I know what I want, I feel I can do it, I have dreamed the dream of completing it. All that's left is to get motivated, and do it. the best part is, that time is now, for anyone! it is remarkably easy to use time for games and such, and sure that is needed, but I am finding out that, you know, we really should be focusing on the future here. This is higher learning, College is going to help us find a path to what makes us happy, or what we'll "settle" for.

but I don't want to settle, someday there will be a beach outside my window, I'll wake up to the waves. I'll put on a suit and go to work.

Think it, Believe it, Dream it, Dare to do it.

either that or be a Jedi..whatever =)

There is always so many things in life to watch.

There are all sorts of people and all sorts of activities. There's always something to see, and sometimes always something to do! Now I just feel exhausted, in general really. Physically from the new sleep schedule, Emotionally from the drag of classes and fears of College and life in general.

But that feeling, that rush, of the unknown when you are ready to face it. Ready to make your stand against the tides of tomorrow. It is a good feeling isn't it? I hope you agree, because life isn't any fun when you sit around and wait for your share to come to you. Why not get up? and get out! and get the Lion's share of the bounty (and by bounty I mean anything not just the green stuff). I can honestly say I am scared about a lot of things, but like with anything in life, the best things in the world take effort, and have hardships. Hey! sure there are problems, with anything, and anyone, but there are happy times too, with smiles and laughter, regardless of if they come from AIM or meeting someone for lunch, or hanging out on a bed, coutch, or futon. There is always happiness. And you have to have some trust, and yes you even have to have some....and kev's gonna punch me for this one...a little bit of faith too. But this is the faith you can see. see in someone's eyes, feel it in their touch, and hear it in their voice.

I guess what I really want to say to get some of my feelings out is this: Do not go gentle into that good night. Fight for what you believe in, and believe in what you fight for.

I guess I am afraid of what I have to lose, but instead I think I am going to be happy for what I have to cherish.

I hope to hear from you soon, you know who you are =)

Back to school back to blogging!

what's peach, and brown, and can only sleep for 20 minutes at a time?

me!

pretty sick here at the moment, swallowing wakes me up....which totally sucks, but hey, I'm feeling a little better each day, countin my lucky stars. I hope everyone out there in TV land is doing well, I'll talk to you soon

Alright, start of a new year and time to reflect on this that have happened, and already are happening.

New years are always good times, you have a wonderful night (hopefully) and it should bring you good luck right? well maybe. new years bring tidings of fun times to come, games, laughter, happiness, love, and maybe a few small pets here and there.

don't forget though, you also have a whole new year of being decieved, lied to, tricked, manipulated, and probably talked about behind your back for probably the amount of hours I spend on the computer; Far too many. Sounds fun eh!

I just want to say thank you to everyone who made 2003 a great year, for happiness and sadness, good times and crappy times. it all evens out in the end. Life Karma ladies and gents.

my favorite part of "life karma" is, that I never know how it works, only that it works. ups and downs are going to fly at you like some deranged porno. and it begins whenever it likes! Muah! (and not the kissing muah). Oh well, if this year continues like it started it'll be amazing, if it continues like like it is now at 2:40pm, there may be signs of overcast skies, with some silver lining thrown in there when I have enough insight to look past the darkness.

and maybe some salsa
and video games
and good friends

p.s. Jamie if you happen to read this gimmie a call eh? I want to hear about the sunny side of Georgia