You know sometimes things just pile up and pile up and eventually...you get spilled chinese food on the dresser.

I often feel as if I put off problems too long before they are confronted, becuase I am afraid to face the consequences. I often feel there is no reason for problems to occur as long as you are in the right mindset, but eventually needs come out and send that idea into the shredder.

I usually can sympathize with people about their problems and I do try my hardest to be consoling, but how do you console, and express at the same time? I will tell you how, very carefully.

I am sorry for having to suspend some "happinesses" of mine for others, but it has to be done or else I feel that I am unbalanced. and no one wants to walk around with a weight in their pocket. Being sorry only goes so far, I need this.

but enough of my encryption of this blog how about we talk openly, shall we?

Basically my day has been really long. the 8am class is tedious and seems to create a different world for me. I have the 8-8:50 world and the rest of the day. The rest of the day begins with me answering the phone with the summons to EverQuest. I play for a little then it is lunch time. As much as you two (heather and amy) probably believe that I do not enjoy lunch times...I usually (way more often than not) do. Today it just so happened I had a sharp headache pain return over and over during lunch as it has all day. this is no good, no one likes headaches, and if you do...you deserve to be smashed in the face with a feather duster...just for some class.

other than this the rest of the day has been doing homework in preperation for my dreaded night classes. 3 hours and 15 minutes of pure un-adulterated IMing time/ me not paying attention.

however, all bragging aside, I am a quick learner when it comes to computers, if you wish to contest this, send me an e-mail at: I_really_don't_care@whatyouthinkaboutme.com send what you like.

anyway I am finding it is easier to blog and learn because I can "pause" my "blogging experience"

alright back to class and soon back to the dorm and perhaps Giant Eagle tonight...but probably not

later

I am such a wuss ass coward.

today was "back handspring day" in gymnastics, and I was the only one to not try, I wasn't recognized or anything, kinda on the DL but that just shows how many people I am comfortable with in the class.

there is the gymnist girls and the football/wrestler guys, and the squad of giggly clique girls. and me

I was so fucking pissed at myself for leaving without doing one, or even attempting to try. Fuck man, why do I even bother trying new things if I don't even put forth real effort to do it.

ruins my fuckin day, damnit.

Ahh a nice day of relaxing.

Sorry to the people who wanted to do something, but I needed a day off from being social on a physical earth-based realm. I am sure you would understand if you only thought about it from a different perspective.

anyway, I had the gig today at Severence hall. it was pretty good except we only got to sing one song, because one girl didn't show up. but it isn't her fault, we weren't really that prepared for that song.

anyway, time for bed talk to you later

oh man,

I missed my math class AGAIN, the alarm was turned off once more. I need to stop being so retarded. if I start missing this mass class I get to lose some letter grades and that is no good.

the new development for today is that I am SORE. my body aches so bad EVERYWHERE (well almost) because of gymnastics, as I got down from my bed I almost fell on my ass becase my arms/legs are too weak to support my weight at the moment. also because I had voice lessons yesterday, my neck/face muscles are sore.

what a wuss I am!

oh well, at least I know these muscles have gotten a work out, and that means I have an excuse not to go to the gym today.

oh god, I laughed at something online...the PAIN. heh heh, I can handle it though, but only if I have a nice beverage beside me. I think I should just call everything beverages and why not? it is their general area of existance.

today was my first day of Gymnastics!

that class kicks soo much ass, aside from the fact the instructer looks like my former boss, Matt Swingo.

it is definatly fun though, just trying something new and not totally stinking at it :)

so now I am just sitting here, eating some foodage, and stuff like that. You guys know how it is.

Alright, well I am back at college and situated and all of that so I guess that means I should start writing in my blog again.

I just figured that since I am at home I should be spending my time doing things instead of blogging, since I could be talking to you all anyway and telling you whats up.

I hope you all had a great break, I know I did. and I look forward to talk to you online :) (and (: for Karried)